There is so much to comment on right now... It's been a long time since I've last posted on this little blog, and I don't quite know where to start. But for now, I am just going to write something that is laying heavy on my heart.
I have a friend who grew up in a very conservative church-one of those skirt wearing, no-movie-going, no-dancing kind of churches. And she has been struggling with what they taught her all her life. She still is.
Reading her stories and thinking about the pain that she must be feeling in her heart makes me so sad... and grateful.
Grateful for the way I was raised. My faith is not that of rules and regulations, of what I can do to make sure I get a place in heaven. I know that there is absolutely nothing that I can do to really impress God. I know that he wipes my sins clean every single day, and he lovs me, even when I do all sorts of shitty stuff. He accepts me for who I am, not for who I want to be. He has my life planned, and His plan is perfect.
There have been times when I felt like I was a "Bad Christian" because I use the language I use, I say some of the things I say, and I want tattoos and wierd piercings. But I don't think that anymore. I know where I stand. I am a beloved daughter of God. He does exist, His son did die on that cross for all the stupid mistakes I have made, are making, and will make. He is my God, and He is in my heart. I try my hardest to live like He would want me to do.
Wow.. I think this is the most wordy post yet :-P.
One more thing, and then I'll sign off.
This friend of mine mentioned how she held a sign that said "Abortion kills children" and that she was thinking about the children and not the women. The thing is, maybe I'm just not as far out there as I orignially thought. Take responsibilty for your actions, and if you can't take back the decision, ask for forgiveness and change your ways. If that's too old-fashioned, then you can kiss.my.arse.
Good night :-)
