Where to start? How do I manage to comprehend the feelings and emotions that I'm feeling right now? ...
I ramble.
Last night, my dear friend/almost sister got hurt. Not physically but mentally. And I was thrust into the position that she has always been in for me as a comforter and spirit-lifter.
But I was so lost. I didn't know what to do, what to say. I've never had experience with what she dealt with. I felt unprepared, and I feel like I failed.
And I don't like failure. I hate the way it makes me feel. It makes me feel worthless, clumsy, and childish.
And then I feel bad because I've made this about me and not her... which makes me selfish to boot.
AND then I feel upset, because why do I feel this way? Why can't I be happy with who I am?
Maybe because the person I am is a nobody, who develops pathetic crushes guys I can't have-who are way out of my league.
You knew this was where it was going right?
It always goes back to him... How could it not? He's all I ever think about...
But I shouldn't. Especially since according to one Twitter post he has someone special. "His Girl".
That's something I'll probably never be...someone's girl. Like I said.. Who wants a nobody?
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